Lost in transition

Long weekend is always good, beside having more time to sleep in, I have more time to "hunt" for wedding stuffs. So this long weekend was indeed a very productive one. I got all my photoshoot outfits, wedding shoes (My dream shoes!!!!), went to do the first fitting of my wedding gown and met up with the decorators and finally closed the deal with them, and sunday has finally ended.

When i tried my wedding dress, i feel so happy. It was like "finally..." someone understand my dream dress. So far the only person who has seen the gown ready "full set" is only ---- Myself. hahahahha..and the last person who will see the gown will be alvin and my dad and everyone else. I want this to be a surprise for them. But i have promised my girlfriends that they will be the first and so is my mom. And i hope i hear no complains from mom..as I am very satisfied with the end result.

..So why lost in transition?? Well, for these past few months, I have been imagining myself moving from the house officially. It means for the rest of my life not living under one roof with my parents. Well i used to like that idea...now, I am always imagining how bad I am going to miss my parents and their "habits" at home. Vice-versa, my parents felt the same way. I am the only person who can stay at home and accompany them to watch tv, listening to their complains, gossips...helping my dad to do some errands..like faxing documents, e-mailings his reports, browsing nets for mom, opening facebooks for them so that they can see their granddaughter photos. And they are wondering..if i am not there anymore...no is going to do it for them anymore and they will be lost. So am I. Well it all comes back to letting go...

I myself also felt lost at times. I don't know if I can manage my own household well. Haizzz...I guess i am a worrier who worry too much...

Have you watch Hatchiko? If not it's highly recommended for those who loves dog. I have watched it and cried from the beginning to the end of the movie. When we were done, my eyes and nose were so red that it was so obvious to the public that I have been crying quite bad. Poor alvin as people thought we were having bad argument and he made me cry hahahahaha.