Well, don't be too surprised with the tittle. It just reflect how I feel now! Don't worry I am not having any major or life crisis..it's just with the recent amount of work, house, weddings and everything else, I felt a bit overwhelmed and cranky. I hate the fact that I can't let myself to trust other people to do the job for me.
A few months before, I read a friend's Facebook status saying.."hate the feeling of being alone to face all these crap". She was getting married that time, so I asked her what kind of crap are u facing..she told me it was the wedding prep...alot of friends families told her that she should at least enjoy the process of it...well she told me it is not enjoyable when you have to do it everything alone...who should she turn to?? Parents? Like me, parents are supporting us financially, but when it comes to the prep, they leave it to us. ( I was hoping my mom to contribute a bit here...well she can't coz she keeps telling me she is busy with her new house and that sucks!). U can't depend on your friends too she said...they have their own busy schedule ( I agree)..how about the future husband...well let me give u a statistic...99% of the wedding prep are mostly handled by the bride herself..(well alvin helps in the Bandung wedding prep...but I am still overwhelmed...I am working full-time here too..and there are other things i need to attend myself...I am not going to list out what those are...coz I don't want to be a complain queen)
Well in all...just to conclude..a friend msg me and told me she is glad that she is still busy..it means she still have work to do and not jobless..and it also means people still trust her ...with her words..it kind of comfort myself a bit...with all the things i am facing now..it means..my boss trust me with work so much...my family trust me that I can organize all the wedding prep by myself..and I need to proof to them they are right about me :)
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