Afraid

I am so afraid that all the things I have now..and all the people that I loves most are gone..ngk tau kenapa tadi berasa gitu...it seems i am so lucky that I am given all the best thing in the world by my family and friends..and it makes me feel so scared..I feel that I don't deserve all these...I don't work hard enough, I have so many things to improve on.....aneh but it is true lho...kadang berasa kita memiliki semua nya jadi takut..kenapa bisa gitu? Why me? Why not them?

Like my cousin said, I am so lucky to have such a life...other people may have to work so hard and yet ngk tentu dapat apa yang mereka inginkan..mungkin akan dapat but not instant.

Makanya...i keep reminding myself...don't ever take people, situations and things for granted..

Actually for me, I don't want any high-roller lifestyle, i don't want to live in a big mansion, famous..or lead the life of a social elite and being the center of the attention. What i hope for is just sederhana, A happy family yang yah support each other, and still enjoy our dinner even though it may only a very simple meal..