Tadi pagi sambil breakfast sambil nonton Opera Winfrey tentang spiritual life. Kenapa manusia suka banyak kecewa nya di dalam hidup mereka? Kenapa manusia suka tidak puas dengan apa yg sudah dimiliki? Kenapa manusia kalo ketemu masalah atau krisis hidup, krisis keuangan sering kali menjadi putus asa, sedih, marah? Why? Coz human have expectation in their life. Example, if u are a businessman, u started your own business, you would expect you business to go well, earn profit and always grow, kalo bisa ampe anak dan cucu bisa nikmatin. This is what you expect. But what happen when the business go bad? Fail? Pasti kita jadi marah, sedih..kecewa..ada juga ngk bisa terima kenyataan bahwa bisnis gagal...
So, human has to learn to let go of high expectation. Di pikir2 bener juga. Dulu waktu gua masi sekolah di Singapur, suka give myself pressure to be always the best in all my academic. Even though my parents do expect me to rank number 1 in my class, but I felt that it is my obligation to be number one as i don't want to dissapoint my parents and my grandpa. My grandpa always told me that since I am the only granddaughter that carries on the Jasman family, he has high expectation of me. So in the end, I spent my time mostly in studying...pokoknya harus dapat nilai paling tinggi. And i did...dan ini berlanjut sampe gua masuk ke Junior College..dan gua baru sadar gua capek bgt..sepertinya gua menjadi manusia paling bodoh sedunia...baca kebanyakan buku...tapi in real life i know nothing...impian gua dulu adalah bisa masuk ke university di singapur...tp gua sadar itu bukan impian gua..that is what my grandpa expect from me...gua sebaliknya pengen lebih tau dunia luar...so..setelah di ajak jalan2 ama ortu ke amrik...makin bikin gua berpikir...what do i want?? So in the end i know i have to let go what i have been working for since my school days in singapore..give up all the achievments i have made and i went directly to the headmaster office..and told her that I want to quit college. and i don't have the intention to do my A-level.
Pas itu banyak yang protest...all the teachers were scolding me...napa give up?? padahal tingal 1 tahun lagi gua bisa masuk ke NUS..but i said no..and the headmaster make me to do petition before i can quit school...so for a week, I went around for all the teachers' signature..gua inget tuh total nya ada 42 guru yang harus gua samperin satu2..jelasin ke mereka napa gua mau berhenti sekolah dan cabut ke amrik...akhirnya dalam satu minggu itu gua dapat deh tanda tangan mereka semua...
Learning to let go sometimes is difficult, but once you let go...berasa nya lega bgt..ngk ada beban...Sama seperti sekarang ini...I don't expect too much from life..tapi selalu bersyukur dengan apa yang suda gua miliki. My mom just remind me that this morning...Selalu appreciate what you have ...jangan mengeluh..dan ngk boleh iri hati..semua orang ada jatah nya dari Tuhan..dan jangan selalu berasa orang lain lebih enak dari kita..itu tidak tentu...yang pasti semua manusia hidup di dunia ini pasti akan mengalami bermacam masalah..tergantung kita gimana handle nya..kadang saat kita di berikan masalah...dibaliknya ada sesuatu yang indah buat kita...contoh..mungkin konflik dengan keluarga..tapi karena konflik ini kita jadi lebih kenal keluarga kita..mungkin karena masalah hubungan keluarga jadi lebih dekat..isn't that wonderful??
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