Well...

Well..i am not sure too why I can't sleep for the past few days..(actually it's my 5th night of sleeping at 5am and wake up at 6am) yes..1 hour of sleep only and am I tired? Nope...Not because there is alot of work to do..my boss is kind of enough of letting me go with some of my work now..so i have lesser things to handle..and for the bali party prep..well i have a team of pple helping too so is Bandung side..I mean actually i am not too busy for the wedding prep for now..since I know well what i want..so i don't have to go through the " shop and see" part..I know which are my fav wedding vendor..

So what makes me can't sleep?? ----> think too much...think too much of the "what if ".....No2..not having a second thought of settling down...but more like thinking what is my life going to be after settling down...will i manage my household well? Will i get along well with the new family ...see the problem is...I am soo lucky...my future -in-laws are the most kind..down-to-earth..friendly...understanding...well all the good things..people i have ever met...and God is good..i really like them alot..so is my sis-in-law ... too good that i feel that everything is too good to be true.

On the other hand...my parents..they support me so much and they have been looking forward to the day I settled down..but..my dad is still hoping that I can live by near him..well I am quite worried too..My parents has been depending on me so much esp on small things. I wonder who is going to be there all the time just to make sure everything is okey? I know it will come back to being "used to it" rythm..and everything will be okey..but it will take sometimes.

and the list of "what if" still goes on and on...too many to be written here..and I guess I want to share these "what if" with the appropriate audience..people who can give me good advice and the right direction...

Anyway, over the weekend I manage to watch Shutter Island and Up in The Sky...Shutter Island is not my fav type of movie..kind of tired after watching them...Up in the sky is so-so..i was expecting more but turn out the ending is quite dissapointing.